ugh.

well, i went sledding today at mixville with erica, amanda, lauren, sara, and sara's little sister.
my mom called me today and told me to be careful, because apparently some kid cracked their head open there yesterday.
 it was all fun, me and amanda went on the sled together and screamed like 2 year olds, while actual 2 year olds were sledding like it was no big thrill.
 we decided we had enough for the day, and decided to all go on one more ride down the hill.
 well, lauren and sara's little sister went on one of those inflatable pool toy floats, and crashed right into this pricker bush. lauren's side was all scraped up and she could hardly move and there was something sticking out of her back. so when we got back to erica's, lauren decided she needed to go to the ER. well, sara got very overwhelmed, and started gagging..which led to her running upstairs and throwing up, which caused me to sit outside crying and short circuiting.
 erica decided that we all would take lauren to midstate.
 well,
1) i'm absolutley terrified of hospitals.
2) midstate ER is where i was taken last year..and i really don't wanna be reminded of that very bad experience.

so, i decided to stay behind, and i'm sitting in lauren's room, waiting for all of them to return. i feel like a bitch. i just really can't go to hospitals..people throw up in hospitals..disease is in hospitals..diseases i could catch and could in turn make me throw up, which could be seen or caught by my parents or brother and make them throw up, which can make me have another panic attack..
 it's endless, really.
 so yeah. my stomach hurts, and i'm so exshausted from being so overwhelmed.
 i really hope lauren is okay though.
 i do care about other people, just when sickness or anything to do with sickness gets in the way, i hate to say it, but i care more about myself in those situations.. and i can't even help it.